I got a very pointed comment today... I should blog more or call this blog, "The End Of Becoming Aiden." Okay... You're right you win. I need to blog more. I don't know... I don't think I am a funk. I mean I'm happy. I'm meeting new people. I have some amazing things coming my way in the next year. (GAAAH, It kills me I can't blog about some of it and saying that is probably already saying too much!) So the next few months I may be touch and go because I have so much going on outside of more porn life. (But it is all building up to a huge event.) But, I'm not going to do the whole, "oh, I'm retiring, oh, I'm back thing." (Sorry Kameron.) It is always hard when someone is away. Mason is out shooting and our other roomies are never home. It's not too bad to be alone, but I sure do get lonely from time to time. I wonder if I made the right choice leaving Logan. I mean I need to be me, but it is so weird to be alone in a big bed. It sucks when I see him out though. It's like I dunno, he's trying to rub it in. When him and Marcus Wyler were out together its like I got the total blow off. I know I didn't go with them but they could at least acknowledge me. It's getting late. I promise to blog more.
<3 Aiden
6 comments:
Stop whining! You created this mess, now you either have to live with it, or fix it!
Hey Aiden, dont worry things will get better. There is a whole grieving process to what you and so many go through. First you might get mad, angry, jealous, then you might feel lonely and left out because you feel no one understands. Vindictiveness might come into play next but in time all those feelings you take for granted will be washed away by understanding. Trust your heart, and if you cant trust your heart, wait till your heart trusts you. Take care and always treat others with kindness and respect no matter what.
Peace
I appreciate the update. I really did enjoy how active the blog used to be.
You're just adjusting. I don't think you need Logan as a safety blanket at this point. You're supposed to be finding yourself and seeing more of the world, then after that, if you two want to get back together, fine.
It's just your family background must have been pretty restrictive if your parent reacted the way they did to you coming out, then going from that to such a committed relationship probably isn't what you need right now. You should let off some steam.
You look very handsome in the photo btw.
After what you posted last Tues. and Weds., I wouldn't be surprised if Logan never spoke to you again! He must be a very forgiving guy. If my boyfriend broke up with me and then posted that shit, I would not be speaking to him for a very long time!
Alas solitude is our lot! One-Hundred Years of Solitude proves that. And yes I'm a cranky old queen.
Good luck. Hang in. It will get better.
You should try drinking. I promise it helps. Just don't drunk dial someone you would regret.
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